Day One

You may recall my 'mayday' post from earlier this summer in which my attempt at being a non-smoker (again) failed miserably. And boy did I. It's been all downhill from there. You know the pattern if you've ever tried to quit smoking and started back. You have one with a glass of wine one night. Just one. No big deal. Then you're having one with every glass of wine. Then you're sick of bumming off friends, so you break down and buy a pack. And soon enough, you're back to your x packs a day, or more, regretting that decision you made after glass of wine you had on that beautiful afternoon in May on Jaimee's patio.

I've been in a funk - or depression - ever since that day. I don't know if it's that decision or the cigarettes themselves that cause it. But either way, it has to stop. I have too many things in my life that are wonderful to be sad every single day.

And so, today was my first whole day without a smoke. I'm sticking to the same method that worked so easily the first time, Allen Carr's "The Easy Way to Stop Smoking". I plan to read it and re-read it. I plan to make notes and highlight lines for easy reference later on as I wish I had done the first time. You, my faithful reader, might even be forced to read passages.

I'm planning to do whatever takes, without repeating my first mistake of doubting the very important rule of "there is no such thing as one cigarette".

I want to be free!!!